Wtf Y am i so suay.....

Last nite play with the blog until quite late, i think up to around 5am+ then i go slp. Took me quite awhile to fall aslp..... Then all of a sudden......bang bang bang bang bang......i woke up and found out its already 10.30am, i could have slpt longer if it wasnt for the "orchestra group" from the funeral downstairs holding their concert early in the morning.

Anyway, new day today but i'm having the same mood i was having for the past week, nothing is improving i guess. 1 good thing is i'll be able to start work next week. Hope by then, work will be able to keep my mind occupied from this agony.

Haha i actually liked my blog site now, the music actually tells u the stages in my marraige, i sang her the Ekin Cheng's song on our ROM nite and a pledge of my love for her, then i got betrayed, and now i finally realised it was my fault but its too late to do anything abt it....3 songs to describe the 3 yrs marraige.

Ah lu wun be up so early cos i heard from henry he slpt around 6am+ too. He's lucky he doesnt have an orchestra concert playing near his house, so i guess it'll be quite sometime b4 he wakes up...

Hmm, 2 more strands of white hair, i really have to go dye my hair soon, if not my whole head will soon become white. Most likely to do that next month ba.

闷，烦， 无奈， 空虚， 现在用这几个字来型容我最恰当。 突然生命里不见了一些东西， 对一个人来说， 是很难式应的一件事。 不知我何时才能够恢复那开心的我。 也许这一生都不会吧。 作天看到我朋友的Msn nick 写了这句话 “命里有时终需有，命里无时莫强求。” 这句话果然说的没错。失去的东西无论你如何得强求， 不是你的终归不是你的， 不管你如何去改， 如何去做， 也是不会有结果。 竟然是这样的话， 到不如把生命乘下的时间都投资在一些更有意义的东西。 一切就让他随风儿来， 也就让他随风儿去吧。 我相信在不久的将来， 我的生活会更加精彩。希望我不会永远都为了这件事儿没勇气去开始一段新的恋情吧。

我的守护天使你到底在那里？ 在我最需要你的时候， 你却偷偷跑了去玩，丢下我一个人不管了。 你是要我学习一个人成长是吗？ 你别坦心， 我不会辜负你对我的期望的， 我一定能重新的站起来。 当我做到以后， 你可一定要回来我身边喔。

今天暂时就写道这里， 晚一些如果有事要记录下来的， 我就会回来写。 拜拜咯。