Taken from her blog "I shall moved on...I shall see how long he will be able to help me with those so-called HIS debts and I will resolve my so-called MY DEBTS (which partial goes to purchasing of sofa for house, sometimes his mcdonald meals, sometimes KTV, and sometimes ciggy...and MOST of it is MINE MA!)."
I did mention i will pay for the debts that we owe together, which includes this sofa. i do rmb saying that ur NEW CC bills i will not fork out a single cent. How often do i ask u to get me mac? as far as i rmb its once in a blue moon. How often have i told u i do not wish to join u in ur activities due to the reason i dont want u to spend so much which are not neccessary? Havent i returned u my cig money whenever i asked u to buy back for me 1st cos i'm lazy to go down buy? sometimes it was u who refuses to take.
So now u are going to slam all these blame on me, well then i got nth to say wor. So many times i think of ur pocket whenever u ask me to go out with u, yet now i'm to be slammed with all these.
Have u ever consider saying, whenever i have money the 1st person i'll spend them on is u? No, cos all u can think of now is how badly i treated u. Whenever i get pay, although i myself have debts piling on my head, i'll still let u have most of my money to pay up ur debts 1st, all i can do is put mine aside and let them chase. I never wanted to say all these here cos i was never calculative with u. U dont have transport money, ask from ur parents they dont have also, i have to go borrow and let u have it. U ask money from ur parents to eat and get scolded by ur dad, i was the 1 who brought u down for food although i know that money is for my transport. ur frd's wedding u have no money to give ang pow, i took a part of my pay and give it to u so u can go show face at the wedding. I always try to fulfill ur dreams whenever i think i have the ability to do so even though i have to sacrifice something. u think after bringing u to ritz for the fireworks i still have my pay left for my other bills or daily expenses? but becos of u i sacrificed those just to make u happy.
Is this the return i shld get when all i wanted is ur happiness when i made that decision? I admit i was wrong for not staying long in a job and going jobless for months, i've never told u this , for the past 2 months i wasnt gaming for nth, i was gaming for money cos i'm being paid to do it via paypal. Everytime i tell u my mum pass me money, all those shit but the fact is i worked for them! i didnt want u to know i took up gaming as a career path. Every month my mum pass u 300 to settle stand chart loan, always will have $40 xtra but i didnt bother to take from u, y is that so? cos i rather let u have it so u dont starve at work. When have u ever seen me being so calculative with u? How often have u been so calculative towards me?
Ppl who are reading this, think for urself, who's the 1 here taking the blames silently up to now?
Ur parent calls me a thief when things go missing at home. When they dont have any proof, dont even say anything. I still rmb the 1st time ur mum lost $50. i showed u my wallet, i even strip naked and proof to u i'm not hiding anything. $50 means nth to me seriously. Up to now , ur parents still treat me as a thief.. u know the reason y. U think for urself, whenever i know u need money i'll give to u if i have without u asking. Whenever u know i'm in need of some financial help, until i got no way out then i have to ask for ur help 1st. and even after asking, u still have to consider.
Yes u paid for my debts initially. i'm grateful to that. 1 more thing i forgot to add in, regarding our wedding, although i alrdy know by having 2 banquets ( lunch and dinner) we wont earn anything, but u wanted it i still let u go ahead with it. Y is the reason so???? becos i know to any woman, they want their wedding to be something they can be proud of. I reduced my guest list to only a group of close friends for what? For u la what else. cos u said u have many frds to invite ma, then i let u have the whole show lor. u think i dont wish to invite many friends to my wedding? Night banquet give ur side so many tables, u really think my relatives only so little? i seriously dont understand y i shld make all these sacrifices. i give in so many things to u, yet all i get in return is blames and not appreciation. Even up to now u're still being so self centered. For u, i tear down my pride but i get cold shoulder from u. U tell me u dun like me going out late nites with my frds, i stopped those. u dont like me playing MJ with henry, i turn them down even when i have the money to play. All these are my entertainments, u even try to take away my gaming which is my only form of entertainment left. So u expect me to live in ur jail while u happily go enjoy ur time with ur frds? Everytime u go out late nites, I always make the effort to stay up and wait for u to come home safely, if theres a need to i can even go and pick u up. But u are just too engrossed with the guys giving u their attention during these time. I've told u b4, what u are looking for is actually the honeymoon period type of love and not a long lasting kind. u say u try to change, but arent u like me? change for 1 week and back to norm again after that?
Life is just unfair, whenever guys and girls get into a conflict, the guys are always being looked at as the party who did the girl no good. Sometimes i have really let loose too much until u get out of hand. How many times i told u not to sign card on things which are not neccessary to have? U keep saying i was the 1 who spends most of the credits in ur CC. can u think carefully again, how much u spent on shopping? I can be pissed off but what abt me? i've been taking in all ur blames quietly letting u have ur way.
I'm tired of typing alrdy. I really felt all those that i've given are worthless... I'm not to be affected by ur words anymore. I've tried to be nice to let u have ur way in this breakup, but u just keep pushing.... real tired. Stick to our agreement, its best we end our relationship and friendship. Those guys who are ur friends and is reading this piece of shit story can jolly well flame me for all u want. Cos eventually, u're still her friends and not mine. A person who thinks and analyses things carefully, will eventually know that both of us are at fault in the end.
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