I've done what i should do.....No other words can change my mind now.

I'm actually quite happy now that she hates me. Can she ever understand y i could nvr open up to a new relationship anymore?
I wonder y is she getting all worked up over that decision i've made last nite. Isn't letting some1 free after so long makes the person happier? Lots of queries lots of ????, but then again, i cant be selfish anymore, its really time to let her go. Its fine with me calling me a liar, i admit i lie, but who on this earth can proudly say that he/she doesnt lie? 1 lie can be considered a white lie by the teller, but it could hurt the listening party. Theres never such things as white lies in this world to the person who got lied to.
Hate me for all u want to cos i deserve it. I do not wish to think of any other things now, i've done enough thinking for the past 7 days. No, i'm not going to bad mouth her here today although i feel no matter how hard i try to solve our problem she's still thinking abt herself.
Woke up this morning and found a few more strands of white hair on my head, now i really believe too much thinking makes u grow more white hair. Up to now, i guess the biggest lie i made was a lie i told myself. Lying to myself, that she will be much happier after i leave her. Lying to myself, that i still hope that in future we can be together. Lying to myself, I can be happy too. I've been lying to myself ever since the start of this relationship, telling myself she wun betray me, its ok to start a new relationship with her. If u think I've lied to u alot, i can tell u, i lie to myself more than i ever lied to u. The only 1 thing i did not lie to myself is the fact that after all these things happen, i do not hate her not even for a single bit.
U were saying u hate liars, so what abt urself then? Do a short survey on ur frds,see if any single 1 of them can proudly tell u they have not told a lie since they can talk. I'm not in a position to criticise what u have been doing during the last yr of our relationship. I'll let u bad mouth me for all u want. cos eventually after so many things that happen, to u i'm always at fault and u are always the good guy.