Well as u can see this is my 1st post. Didnt wana change much to this blog cos i'm only making this to throw out all my problems. Laugh at me for all u wan to cos i too laugh at myself for my mistakes.
3 yrs in marriage, 3 yrs of commitment, 3 yrs of being faithful, all these have been a waste of my time. It was really foolish of me to believe her that she wont 2 time me. My god what a joke, its just like a compulsive gambler saying he wont gamble not even for the new yr. How naive can i get? every1 cheats somehow or another, but i still chose to believe. I'm still very curious y do all women around me have to hurt me this way? 2 serious relations both end up with 2 timers.... even the only kin i have does this which made me having a broken family....but i do not blame her at all cos afterall shes all i got, the only person who will nvr give me up no matter what mistakes i've made.
Am i being too kind to her this time? I actually asked the guy to come to our house downstairs to pick her up to work cos i know she wont be feeling good after this quarrel. I myself find ths very not like me. I even remembered telling her, "eh i am an ah beng leh so what u expect me to do if u know i ask him to come?" LOL wat a big joke, cos my only intention was to make sure of her safety. How silly of me. If it was 3 yrs back i bet the guy would have landed in the hospital with a minimum of 3 broken bones and a few of the body parts fractured. I think i've somehow matured from this or in other words i might have accepted my fate. All my relationship turns out being 2 time fate LOL.
I was being told by her that i dont accompany her enough. well myb it could be true, cos i'm always in my computer room waiting for her to come in to use the pc together b4 she goes to bed early. Told her this many times but well i guess it just dont work out this way. I've already had a hard time finding a job, really been unlucky with everything. got a job at a supermarket, attended 1st day then on that nite i sprained my neck so bad i couldnt attend work the next day thus i was sacked, then i got a job doing data entry, and guess what, 1st day of work only b4 lunch time my in charge told me i'm not needed to fill up this position as the previous staff decides not to resign. Finally i was suppose to start work today, and i have to find out abt the shocking news that my wife was 2 timing me.
Wow, i stunned there for awhile, mind went blank not knowing what to write haha, i must admit this is a super big impact on me. Just as my heart has started to open up for a new relation which got me wanting to start a family, this kind of things have to happen again. 1st relation was also 3 yrs now its another 3 yrs, am i fated not to have any relationships for more than 3 yrs? I dont think i would be serious in any relation i get into now. i might not even wana be in 1 LOL. hey i'm not the kind of guy who cant live without girls. Definately not a chee hong kia hahah. really sick and tired of life, how i wish i could turn back to the time when i am still schooling. Life back then was so carefree, do what i want, go whereever i feel like, no responsibilities, no commitments, and the most impt of all, i dont get hurt by a broken relationship being 2 timed.
No no no, i;'m not thinking of ending my life, wah i'd really be stupid if i go do that liao. To me i dont get beaten down so easily, I've always known I do things to the extreme may it be good or bad, and when it comes to revenge LOLOLOLOLOL u really cant imagine what i'll actually do... Nobody can read my mind not even my mother. NObody knows what plans i make in my mind. But surprisingly this time i have no thoughts abt revenge. I somehow felt its really fated to end this way. No point blaming on any1.
Time to start a new chapter in my life. I've got to live a better life now. It her loss for choosing to 2 time me. Although I'm not the romantic kind of person that she wants, but at least i know i'm not the kind who is unfaithful to my partner once i'm committed to her. I just changed msn nick "I was ressurected from the grave. I shld make full use of my life from now on. *Evil Grin*" really best describes what i wana do now. Time to have some fun, but 1st i think i still have to shed off some fats haha. For her i made myself fat so she can look slim and pretty and i walk beside her, but now it shld be my turn to pamper myself. time for diets and workouts. =p
From this moment on, i shall declare, no other female species will ever make me change for her or sacrifice anything for her in any ways. Its my life and i'll live it in whatever ways i want to.
THIS IS MY BUSINESS AND ITS NON OF UR CONCERN.
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