Today seems to be a good day for me, duno y i woke up feeling happy, even though i slept for only less than 5 hours. Was chatting on the fone until 6.30 am this morning and woke up at 11+am then went back to slp until 1.30pm lol. When i woke up, my mind seemed so clear and empty, i couldnt find anything that will piss me off. I was shocked!!! After so long i was finally able to get myself pissed off early in the morning by thinking of the hurt she has caused in me.
Had a good lunch today too. The food at the usual Economic rice stall tasted exceptionally good today. Everything on my plate was so tasty, even the rice tasted sweet. Met up David and Fel at tpy for lunch. Actually last nite when i asked david to come for lunch i alrdy told him its ok if he wants to ask Fel along cos she's also working nearby. I'm not the kind of person who hates ppl when they have done nothing wrong to me. But i told david that if she actually dun really feel like seeing me i'm fine with it too, at most we meet some other time for lunch lor, not as if today my last day on earth =p.
As usual those 2 jokers keep suaning each other while eating lor. Sometimes i wonder, they really make a good pair LOL JK NIA. That Fel hor i seriously BTH her, Pls do not tell ppl u working at TPY next time hor, u shld know y la hor =p. Anyway after lunch and some talk kok sessions, david and i went to pa billiard at TPY, and as usual i lose to him lor. Dun feel sian when i lost him cos its normal. He too power liao la. Actually wanted to walk with him to the interchange after we finish our game 1, but my tummy 不听话, need to go do 大号, so bo bian lor i have to faster go home. Finish updating this have to go do assignment liao, haiz how i wish i could slack down abit now but canot sia, Sunday is Desmond and Serene's Bday, have to think of what present to get for them liao. haiyo really headache. I bet Sunday's chalet will be full of laughters. With Henry and Louis around, its hard not to laugh. Looking forward to it man. Still got 2 more days =.= impatient !!!!!!!!
I also wana wish myself good luck in handling my new found personality, i had some quiet time thinking last nite, and my actions really scares me. Even previously i used to hate lots of things, i would only merely pass some bad comments and stop. I would never think of doing or saying nasty things in front of them cos i didnt want the person to look or feel embarressed in front of so many ppl. But now i really changed into another person, my words have became my weapon, i would say the nastiest things to hurt her yet not feeling any guilt at all. Is this the real me? On the other hand when i did that i felt kinda good, i felt happy, i never felt this good in my life b4.
I kept asking myself, do i really need to see a person suffer then i can be happy? The word yes keep appearing b4 me when i asked myself that. So i guess thats it, i'm being possessed by the Devil. Since this is my fate, I'll accept it. Since this is what i have to do to be happy, i shall not let myself down. The only time i will ever shed another tear will be the day my mother pass away.
It could be possible that even if i'm being shot in the heart i believe the bullet will not penetrate it, cos its all hardened up now. Nothing in the whole world will be able to open it again. Want me to open up my heart? I'll teach u how. Just show me your own heart 1st, dig it out and show me if its black or red. Or u dont even have 1 to show in the 1st place. Only then i'll believe u that u're not lying to me and only then i'll start to trust u.
( Dont so BHB this sentence is not for U, this sentence is for other strangers whom just in case have a chance to step into my life in future. Nothing in this entry is written for u).
Ok assignment time. cya
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